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denise sng.
[ - aphrael - ]
officiallytwentyf0ur+
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ex-KCian & TP grad
hopelessly lost.
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Wednesday, March 10, 2010

after a nice long talk wif bestie.. its kinda been decided. better to stop now then drag on til it gets harder and worse. then she supported the idea of going all out and see wat happens. again not going to have any hopes for that. i'd rather not haf any hopes, then to hope and then haf them dashed. hurts even more that way.

i hope he will be able to take it. its not like its totally over. im not even sure how it will turn out. sigh. i noe its selfish but then again, its not like i dun feel sumting for him. i do. tts why its so hard to do.. now i haf to get past next week's.. then the long wait to may......

Vampire Queen's heart yearns to dance again-` @* 4:03 AM
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Tuesday, March 09, 2010

seriously. i duno wat to make of it anymore. the feeling is getting stronger each day. it could be just figments of my imagination, things that i deduce to be gd in my own mind, things that are too gd to be true. if i truly noe him, i doubt he feels the same way. im set on setting things straight, no more delusions. but yet im afraid. truly honestly afraid.

i need to do this and like all humans, im afraid of the outcome. gd or bad there's alot of things to be afraid of.. either outcome is just as bad. i duno if i will be able to think straight. every figment of my being tells me not to do it, but i noe my heart. it wun be able to withstand it anymore. everytime i push it aside, delay the inevitable, it struggles to not explode. but its reali at its limit.

its been wat.. almost 2yrs? and i've only come to realise it last dec what my heart is trying to tell me. i've been unconciously blinding myself to the truth, not wanting to believe in it til it came all pouring out. how stupid i am. now either way, there will be casualities..

my heart hurts.. reali badly.. i pray for guidance to do what is right after the confrontation. pls gimme the strength to do wat is needed and to do wat i need to do afterwards.. pls..

Vampire Queen's heart yearns to dance again-` @* 3:58 AM
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