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denise sng.
[ - aphrael - ]
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Friday, January 21, 2005

hmmm today is a public holiday.. went out for lunch wif my family and my grandma.. followed my dad go fetch my grandma after dropping my mom, sisters and maid at Safra Tampines.. we were going to Sakura for lunch.. yummy~ the first thing i went for was salmon!!! grabbed alot of salmon slices.. lol.. grabbed a few pieces of tuna oso.. hehe lucky i did.. coz after that there wasnt any more tuna slices.. lol my poor parents.. hehe.. spent abt 2 hrs there i tink.. ate til i tink i got fatter.. lol.. even went to make ice cream float for my sisters and myself.. wahhaha so fun scooping the ice cream sia.. goes to show that ice cream biz is definitely out for me.. lol over scoop sia.. wahaha.. or maybe will haf more loyal customers that way.. lol.. oh well..

after that went to meet my deardear.. hehe.. his fren jingwei (is this the rite spelling??) asked deardear to bring me along.. hehe i duno him and yet he invited me.. so paiseh sia.. lol but since deardear ask me go wif him so i say ok~ hehex.. dad dropped my grandma off first.. den drove to pasir ris mrt to drop me off.. was supposed to meet ken but he was still at bugis buying present.. den i alone there.. T-T.. dear called me ask me where i am.. told him i reach le den no one there coz ken still at bugis.. lol.. while dear called his other fren to conference wif me to find out wat's going on.. i went over to This Fashion to look look ard.. saw a few skirts that look gd.. lol.. so while they sort tings out i took the skirts and waited for my turn to use the changing room.. hehe.. ended up buying the first skirt i took.. a white frilly skirt.. oops.. wat's wrong wif me sia.. lol.. bought lunch for dear.. abt to go find him den ken call me.. ask me wait for him.. lol.. poor dear.. dying of hunger le.. >_< waited 30mins for ken den we faster went to take cab.. lol.. dear want to eat him up le.. lol..

fed dear his lunch while he play Magic wif his frenz.. been a long time since i last played Magic.. still prefer the online version.. hehe.. after he finish eating (and playing) we sat outside the other chalet and crapped ard.. the 2 girls kept looking over.. tink its either they staring at me or they jealous that i got such a cute bf.. wahahhahaha.. too bad girls.. he's mine.. try anything stupid and i cant guarantee your safety.. hehe.. *visual - cat sharpening claws*

aniwaex lets fast forward a bit.. kenneth came juz when we were started to prepare for the bbq.. we watched the uncle build up the fire.. sibei pro.. lol.. den lotsa ppl started pouring in.. hehe.. got a bit crowded in the 2 chalets.. so we sat outside.. had a bit of fun upstairs in the room wif dear and ken.. we both kept bullying ken.. wahahahhaa.. to the extent ken sat in the corner there and din wan to come out.. wahhahaa.. poor ting.. =X stayed til ard 10.45 lidat.. den left..

hmmm tink i shall watch a bit of tv le.. hehe i noe the ending part a bit abrupt.. but hell.. watching Predator kill the Alien is too distracting.. so i shall juz end it here and watch the show.. lol..

kill them aliens!!!
[ - di|emma - ]

Vampire Queen's heart yearns to dance again-` @* 11:59 PM

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Wednesday, January 19, 2005

WARNING: LONG POST AHEAD. FOR THOSE WIF DRY EYES, PLS GET EYE MO B4 PROCEEDING. THANK U

for those who haf seen my msn nick the past few days.. juz to let u noe.. tings are fine now.. hehe.. sorrie if i gave u peeps a scare.. esp to those who aint used to seeing/hearing me in such a mood.. aniwaex.. as i said.. tings are fine le.. we kinda toked it over.. den i went over to his hse yesterday.. bought him lunch too.. zinger burger meal.. upsize.. change drink to ice lemon tea.. hehex.. i can rmb everything by hard le.. no effort needed.. after that i pei him go meet fren study.. den lame/crap ard til i had to go home.. finally got chance to haf him send me home le.. coz normally is i go his hse.. den by the time i leave his hse.. haf to take taxi home le.. if not i'll reach home very late.. (-_-)|||

ok thats basically wat i did on tues.. lemme tink abt wat i did on MONDAY.. since the prob started on sun.. btw.. on SUNDAY.. i met up wif shel and randi (who's finally back in sg! missed her to bits!) at tanah merah mrt.. was kinda late.. due to my habit of switching bags.. AND.. forgetting to take my ez link card out.. reali DIAOX lor.. not first time summore.. aniwaex so by the time i went back home & got onto the bus to go interchange.. i was oredi abt 20mins late le.. sigh.. so after i met them.. we waited for the next train to go EXPO.. den go chiong Robinson Sale!! w00t! shopping!! was supposed to get slippers.. but ended up buying a new pair of shorts.. from b.u.m. equipment.. cudnt find any nice flat slippers.. sadded.. OH! yeah! another ting was.. I SAW MY DREAM BOOTS!!!! OMG!! it had the kind of cutting that i like! and its ankle boots summore!! OMG!!!!!! me and randi made shel try it on.. since she was the only one wearing jeans.. i swear i almost fainted.. it looked SO MATCHING wif jeans!!! i wanted to buy it sia.. BUT.. no more size 36!!!??? i was like WTH???!!!!! CHEAT MY FEELINGS!!! *sobz*.. how cud they..

aniwaex.. den after that my bf came to meet me.. to pass me the bluetooth device.. coz i wanted to use it to transfer stuff from my hp to my comp.. and i was gona start selling stuff online too.. in yahoo auctions.. so can take pics in my hp and load them online.. den tts when the trouble started.. my bf kinda hit me on the side of my head pretty hard.. which is sumting i did not like coz of wat happened in the past.. normally he hit me on the head is no pain wan.. but that day when he hit me.. it hurt.. so i said y he hit me so pain.. and was a bit dulanx coz i hate to be reminded of my past.. den a while later after walk walk a bit more den cant rmb y.. he hit my head again.. on the same spot.. which was still painful lor.. den i got fed up den i kinda raised my voice at him lor.. den ignore him lor.. haiz.. wish i cud've controlled my temper btr.. but when it comes to my past.. i get very agitated.. haiz.. i shant reali elaborate further on wat happened.. but can say that the prob started when he said he going home le (coz i ignoring him) and me saying 'go lor' haiz.. stupid me..

he sent me an sms later.. to which i replied.. and nv got a reply after that.. so i tot 'maybe i shud let him cool down a bit first' so i only smsed him in the evening.. which oso he nv replied.. but i noe he saw the msg.. coz of his msn nick.. haiz.. which made me cry lah.. den he kept changing nick.. which kinda told me wat he was tinking lor.. haiz.. den me.. being so bodoh.. dino how to react coz i long time nv 'hong' ppl le.. as in in bgrs lah.. wan me hong my kors, meis etc very easy.. but bf.. i long time nv had to do that le.. so felt very lost lor.. cudnt stop crying summore..

whilst trying to figure out wat i shud do.. i got a call from sum1.. whom i wasnt expecting to call lah.. one of his buddies call me.. ask me wat happened.. den i was like 'how u get my no' and he said he asked my bf for my no.. which til now.. is surprising to me.. but aniwaex so i told him wat happened lor.. how it started.. how i noe is my fault.. and that i smsed him back saying i sorrie but tings seem to only get worse.. den he told me not to look at msn first.. or at my bf's nick.. coz he say my bf not in the rite state of mind.. den saying alot of tings now etc etc etc.. cant write everything here.. coz i tink this entry can become a thesis.. lol.. he pei me tok all the way til ard 3+ 4 i tink.. cant rmb le.. changed my blog template whilst on the phone.. juz to keep my mind off tings.. less than an hour i finished changing the skin and putting all the necessary data into the skin.. sigh..

the next day.. went to meet shel in sch.. to do work.. went to cyber centre to chiong do MA assigment and maple.. tink was a little ki siao le.. saw another of his buddies there.. was using the comp opp ours.. after that.. i went to meet his fren to tok tok a bit.. den tink got ppl tink wrong sia.. diaox.. den coz i din wan go home so early (i NV wan to go home early unless no choice) he say go orchard.. so i say ok anything.. dino wat else to do.. and he bu fang xing leave me by myself so he suggest go orchard gai gai.. went to bus stop wait for bus.. den end up when bus come.. the driver ji tao AP lor.. juz drive off.. so nvm decided to see which bus comes first.. if 518 den go orchard.. if 23 den go bugis.. end up 23 came first so go bugis lor..

ok so fast forward.. went bugis.. walk here walk there.. blur here blur there.. tok rubbish all the way.. den pei him go eat dinner.. actually is watch him eat coz i no appetite.. he say i muz eat sumting if not he cannot ans to my bf.. so i took one french fries and eat lor.. got eat wat.. den tok summore.. den went home le.. cant slp again.. den i got my fren who stays nearby to help me buy alcohol.. mudshake vanilla and original vodka blue.. felt the urge to drink alcohol.. so was a little high lor.. den called his fren ard 1.40 lidat to to lor.. coz cant slp.. den end up he listen to me tok rubbish.. and i tell me who in my frenster is attached and who is single.. coz he wan to noe more girls.. he actually went thru all potential targets in BOTH my frenster accts sia.. diaoz.. den tok all the way til ard 4+ i tink.. den he say he CMI le.. need to slp.. so put down lor.. den i stone all the way til tues.. tink i fell aslp for abt an hour.. den received a msg from my bf.. which immediately i wake up and call him lor..

if u read the first paragraph properly.. u'll noe wat happened le lah.. dun tink need me say wat happened after i called him rite? tings that were said between us i keep in my heart.. be it gd or bad.. painless or painful.. this was a lesson to be learnt lor.. one gd ting is that.. now we're much closer to each other.. feel more bonded together.. coz we learnt more tings abt each other.. that others do not noe.. and each other's differences.. all i can say is.. thankx dear for giving in a TEENSY bit.. i will try to change.. but dun expect instant miracles hor.. ok?? luv u alot.. cant live without u le.. i wan to be wif u foreva.. cant wait for that day when we can be together foreva.. ai si ni le..

wo shi xin fu de..
[- di|emma - ]

Vampire Queen's heart yearns to dance again-` @* 1:57 AM

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Sunday, January 16, 2005

haiz.. i duno wat else to say for now.. i juz noe that.. at this point in time.. i've no mood to go blog abt wat happened in the past few weeks.. there haf been some minor problems.. which cud be gotten over easily.. and there haf been some major probs.. which involved lots of crying.. and heartache.. but oh well.. thats life.. inevitable.. unavoidable.. haiz..

one incident i can tink of.. happened on new year's eve.. dun reali wana tok abt it here.. juz writing wateva im tinkin rite now.. im in a sad mood btw.. sumtimes juz listening to midis.. wifout the lyrics.. is gd enuf to make one cry le.. who needs the lyrics to make one cry.. the music's enuf.. now there's only one song thats playing now.. and thats Qi Li Xiang.. by jay chou..

trying to do MA assignment now.. dun tink i'll slp tonite.. til im done wif it.. mite feel btr that way..

duno wat else shud i do.. i feel that i've lost touch wif my sensitive side.. i cant seem to console ppl as well as last time.. since most of the time now im the one who needs the consolation.. but yet.. cant find it.. i noe my gal pals are here for me.. and i noe they will alwiz be.. but.. the consolation i need most.. is from one person.. but.. i oso cant seem to get it.. i tot i had it once.. but den it wasnt meant to be..

hmmm juz got off the phone.. felt a bit btr.. but now.. when left alone again.. the tears start coming again.. tink this is worse than that heartbreak.. coz this time.. the feelings' mutual.. but i duno wat will happen now.. maybe tings will change.. for gd or for bad.. tink its gona be bad.. i duno.. left hand's in pain.. still swollen.. wun care much.. let the pain numb me.. let the pain take over my mind and body once again.. since its been done b4.. let my old self emerge.. maybe tings will be like the gd ol' days.. where i dun feel a ting.. even if i bust my knuckles whacking stuff.. let the pain take control.. let me be myself no more..

depressingly sad.. psychotic..
[ - di|emma - ]

Vampire Queen's heart yearns to dance again-` @* 11:20 PM

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